Ever since I lost many friends from college, moved back home, been lonely, and yeah just having no life altogether... I have become terribly bitter. Friendship and what does it mean to be a friend? What do I want my new (if I do get friends) friendships to be like? On one hand; I just don't want anyone, but then I do. I get to lazy, lonesome, sad, scared, apathetic, and depressed, then I get stuck on self loathing. What did I do to deserve this? Where did I go wrong? Okay so now I just hate everyone. I don't really want to be this way.